Waking Up

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What the hell am I doing?

I’ve got this kick in the ass lately – I sold my home, decided to move back up north, change what I do for a living (yeah yeah, again). I cut my hair, I want to get a dog. Two, actually. And some furry chickens.

I feel like I can’t change enough fast enough. I feel like I’ve been stuck at the bottom of a dark hole of depression and apathy for the last couple years and I’m Just. DONE. With it. There is so much creativity and opportunity and possibility out there, I want to take advantage of it all. I don’t want to look back and say what the fuck was I waiting for?

Looney Tunes

Mental health is a really fucked up thing. It can make you question every emotion that you have. Which in turn can make you question every decision that you make. Is this really a good idea to go sell my home and move even further away from the city I love and do so much of my work in? Or is this a manic episode I’m going to wake up from homeless and alone and broke?

I don’t know. But at this point I’m more afraid of the opportunities I might miss then the failures I might encounter.

One thing. Every Day. That scares you.

I’ve got a backlog of scary to catch up on.

Furry (silkie) chicken

  • Laurisa Christine

    I’m right there with you. Moved across the ocean. Ejected out of a startup I really wanted to work. Fell in love with a city and a person, too, neither of which speak my language very much. Participated in a Smtexh Startup Weekend in a said new country in said new language. I’m here to tell you that after 7 months the catching up on scary challenges is scary. And crazy fun. Enjoy the ride, sista. Fellow traveler on the push-the-boundaries.

    Oh, and I’m glad you took the blog very day challenge. I’m pissed that I didn’t challenge you to it myself. I love what you write. Always 💛

    • You are ALWAYS out doing crazy scary things – I love it! <3

      Thanks for note. Glad you're having fun. And you'll just have to think up another challenge for me ;-)